It would be nice

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Sometimes I feel I try really hard to understand people and it would be great if they would try as hard as me. Not assume, not try to guess and certainly not draw from past experience. It is possible to be dumbfonded sometimes, to obsolutesly have no clue where a person is coming from as long as you allow yourself to learn and not just be mad because you don't understand why I might be a reclusive man from time to time.

Its kinda sucks but I really miss my family right now and knowing that I'm just chilling at my place right now just makes me annoyed that I just didn't go regardless. Life lessons..ugh..

Navidad

SO I posted a new bit, for some reason I keep on forgetting that I'm latino. I think its because growing up people never knew what I was. I thought It was obvious but I guess the last name threw people off. I kid.

Anyways you should check Anjelah Johnson, she's hott and funny. Not that it matters that she's hott(the extra 't' is because I want to emphasis she's really pretty) but I guess that's why I found out she was funny. Go figure!? * ok she's not that hot but she's funny..

Usually I say something corny like love those around you and yourself or its more important to give than get. Well screw that, wisdom to live by. If you're with someone that gives you a gift that would otherwise be intended for an elderly woman or man. Please just RUN! No good will come from it. See its all in the gift, people that care about you don't give you shitty gifts. See I was reading the signs, Betty bop wallet,VHS tape that didn't work, break maker..these are things that should have triggered some concern, instead I just kept on thinking they were gag gifts. Don't be the gag.

OK so that was my psa.

Feliz Navidad..
and a Happy New Year!

Late Night

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Apparently Leeloo like the christmas tree lights because she gets all hyper at night when I turn them on. Here I was able capture being naughty. She cracks me up!

Ah shit, I became a cat lover, how annoying is that!

Hanukkah

I'm not Jewish but it eerie how much my up bringing was based on the Jewish laws.
I wasn't allowed to eat pork, every Friday at sundown I had to turn off the tv and celebrate the sabbath. We went to church on Saturday's and we didn't go out to eat or pay for on sabbath. I remember waiting till Saturday night and then we go do stuff. I loved and hated the winter's. Sundown was at 5p but then it was over by 5p the next day. Oh, we gave 10% of your money back to church.. Now I know I didn't go synagogue or go to Hebrew school but I did go to a christian school where this lifestyle was reinforced so If we're being real I'm a pseudo Jew. To top it off I kept on being told about how I was going to persecuted for my beliefs,that's right just like the Jewish followers were! Kinda weird!

Growing up I never knew why so many people fought about religion, race, money...we start with nothing and when we die we go the same way we came. Race, that's a mystery to me, who really cares what color you are if you're mind,heart, and soul are kind. Which leads me to religion, I think we're reading the same book, believing in the same thing we just have different versions and names for the characters. I believe in God, you might believe in Allah..They might as well be the same person since they teach same thing.

Full and Heavy..

I had an internal victory. I sometimes have a uncontrollable urge to buy stuff, perhaps its because I grew up poor and never had shit. Come to think of it I know a lot of friends that had similar childhoods and they say the same thing. I know its not a scientific fact that if you're poor you're going to have a spending problem but it does make sense. Unfortunately this type of behavior will also cause you to be poor, hence a evil cycle begins again! Anyways that topic is for another time. A couple months ago I made a horrible mistake of buying a TV from a friend, it was cheap but this monstrosity is abnormally large and heavy(which is why its a monstrosity!!). At this moment it is the thorn to my side, It asthetically just ruins my living room. Instead of having a wonderful flat panel plasma hanging on the wall I have this beast eating up precious space. It works just fine and the picture isn't bad for a $100 tv. So now that you have a backstory I'll go ahead with the story. Black friday came and went, I didn't buy a tv not once but 3 times I talked myself out of buying what visual urges had me yearning for.

Why would I do that, you ask. Well I guess I'm acting like a grown ass man ( my favorite cliche) and acted responsible. Sure I could of bought it and it would of been fine but then I think about how silly it would be have this tv in my living room and then tell one of my best friends I can't come to their wedding because I'm watching my money on the wall instead of having a kick ass time in Scotland. So the tv will have to wait until at least after I finalize my travel arrangements.

Yes, yes, how responsible of me..well I rationalized another buy, a nice kenneth cole suit but at least I can wear it to wedding!

Vacant Amusement park

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The great wall of Tucker

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I remember growing up and my mama would say to me to watch that tone lester francisco (whenever you hear your middle name its not a good thing) now at the ripe age of 30 I understand what she means. There's a right way and a wrong way to talk to someone, Its presented itself a couple time in the past weeks where I was being spoken to and I didn't appreciate the manner in which I was being spoken to, at that point I don't care what you're saying to me and what you're saying because I've already made my mind that you crossed that proverbial line where you're out of line. I mean I don't have a problem being wrong but don't talk to me like I'm a kid because that drives me up the wall and chances are I might go through the wall, I kid.

Anyways I'm preparing my stomach for the massacre that will happen tomorrow. I'm a bit worried because we hit up some Taco's last night and it was all you can eat, however I didn't even make it to a second plate? I talk a big game but I really can't put anything away. The skinny guys are really the buffet manager worst nightmare, they some how can eat like hogs!

So yeah, hopefully this thanksgiving will be more giving than last year's.

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Well I had this nice entry about some relevant things but as usual when I expect technology to work it fails me every time. So now you have this picture of me touch Big Boy in a very odd manner. Some of you might even wonder why I would be at a Big Boy to begin with, well they have good hearty, warm meals at a price that won't break the bank (I kinda made that up).

Also I want to let everyone know that I did not save a lot on my car insurance, in fact I'm paying way too much, thank you very much Geico!

Seriously though I want to talk to you about an ongoing problem, the Economy. I'm sure we all sit down and watch the news or read the paper (online) but do we really understand it. I encourage you to get informed about how your money works for you. There is great program on NPR called Planet Money. Check it out. Here is there blog. http://www.npr.org/blogs/money/ but please don't tell em I sent you.

So there's 59 days left.

I mean not that anyone cares but I'm one of those people that goes to work and checks off the days like a crazy inmate serving time, I don't know what happens at the end, maybe unemployment.

I remember when I quit a job and I was like acting like I was going on summer break, I was literally so happy to be unemployed! Now I'd probably cry, I'd be pulling out whatever hair I had left and like saying eerie things in corner like " I did my best, I did my best!"

I'm soo weird, I always think I'm going to win the lotto..but its not good because I'll have these like inner turmoil about who I'm going to give money to and then I realize that I have a huge family and that perhaps 60 millions dollars won't be enough to take care of them. I get soo stressed about it that by the time the lotto drawings come out I'm praying that I didn't win.

Yeah, crazy. Its like the people that don't play the lotto till like its 100 million. I'll ask them why don't play any other time and they look at me like

"why would I bother on 20 million" ah, american's!

Anyways my co-workers are on edge, its amazing how much we hate our boss! Like one of my co-workers literally said that he had to fight going all black on her and he's black.

I guess I need to start working on my resume, I have that 2yr itch, where I'm feeling crazy and I need to go on summer break.

Smooth till the last drop..

more weddings
more kids
more of alot of things.

I guess there isn't room for les in that....

Come Fly with me..

So I apparently was either too sick or too busy to catch the balloon boy fiasco! I caught wind of it last night when Tucker is asking me what I think about it. I thought it was a YouTube thing but then it was CNN and all over the place. Apparently it the kids would later say they did it for the show! Ha ha. I don't know about you but I really don't think I would want to be on TV because of tragedy or for that matter something awesome. I remember when they had that bounty for Osama, I think it was 25 million tax free. I kept on thinking there is no way anyone would survive that, it would be like Patriot Games but worse.

Which make me think I wonder if Dog the bounty hunter could go over there and find him? I can see it now, it would be a AE special. They'd have Dog and his redneck family asking everyone about where Osama is, camping out at his alleged cave screaming things like "You know we know that you're hear, you better make it easy for yourself brah". All the while sticking out like snow in the desert( think about it before you dismiss it).

Then in some miraculous turn in events, around the 45min mark, they'd catch a break and find Osama coming back from one of his terrorist training camps. You know he'd be walking into his cave all cool, maybe drinking a sharbat and listening to his Ipod. Then DOG and his 20 illegitimate children in all their mullet glory would surround him with there spray guns.

That's as far as I've gotten with this story, the ending could get messy.

Anyways I've been incredible weak most of the week since I'm fighting some sort of unknown sickness but I've finally broke through it. Its Friday and I'm looking to chill this weekend.

I don't know if anyone reads this but if you do, have a great weekend.

I guess I didn't get the memo..

Holy crap, its going to be October tomorrow. This morning fall made an appearance, granted in south that just means cooler morning since the leave don't change colors here. Lots has been going on around me but not really to me. I have yet another wedding I'm in but this one should be hella fun ( I think the key is to be involved in the wedding party but not too involved cuz then you get to enjoy it-you should write that down.)



Babies seem to be popping out left and right. Quite frankly Facebook has been converted into babybook but then again I think that just represents how most of my friends are getting down. Well roughly at least nine month ago.

I can't seem to get the Miley Cyrus song outta of my head. Its one of those stupid songs that makes you move. If you're driving your nodding your head or my case I'm shaking my ass. Its disturbing. I don't know if its a downgrade on my taste or my taste has changed. I use to hate talk radio and now If I'm not listening to a podcast at work I'm feeling restless!

Hmm, I'm learning that my body and my mine are no longer equals. My mine is capable of doing incredible things however...my body can't execute these feats anymore (Stretching is essential for longevity, write that down.)

What is the point of this entry, I guess I'm just talking here. Life (yes there is a life lesson in here) is a carousel, I think I got lost in the turbulence that sometimes comes with living and have now noticed that I'm back to where I wanted to be before I lost my way. Sure I've got some scars and I've some wounds that are mending but I'm on the right track again. ( I should write that down!)

Odd pairing.

Many of you may or may not know that I'm a huge David Gray fan. I've never been able to attend any of this shows, to my displeasure, well I found out that he'll be in St.Pete next month. However as I'm reading who he's touring with I'm completely confused how this ticket was ever marketed? He's touring with ICP(Insane Clown Posse). To say that they're on the opposite spectrum's would be an understatement. I hate ICP, growing up I remember listening to their music and just scratching my head, that shit isn't music. So I guess David Gray will have to wait yet again.

Anyways not much as been happening in my life lately, though I wish otherwise. It would be nice to be surprised...

Mi familia

So my mom just came down to visit over the labor day weekend, man its totally overwhelming when my family gets together. I hardly got to spend anytime with my mom because of her sister's also being in town. Now I don't mind sharing my mom with people but not when I don't get to see her too often and since my mom doesn't know how to say no I routinely find myself sharing. Anyways I guess as I get older I don't feel so thrilled having to jockey for some time with her or my sis. Intermediate family takes precedent over extended family, at least it does to me. Anyways now my dad is coming today after just calling me over the weekend to let me know he's in Florida. I haven't yet had a full week since my mom left and now I have my dad here. I see him even less than my mom but at least I have a relationship with my mom where as my dad, well thats a bit more strange. I didn't meet him till I was 11 yrs and he lives thousands of miles away, so its more stressful to see him since I don't really know him. I know its not his fault but I've gotten use to him not ever being in my life.

It should be an interesting weekend, hopefully it won't be a waste.

I don't know why..

Sometimes I kinda wonder if like we have it all wrong; for instance the Geico commercial with the cavemen. Maybe its not so easy a caveman can do it! I don't usually like to be the person to be like I told you so but GM, you messed up! EV1 (I might be mistaken by the model) was an electric car well received and even more appreciated by those who thought that they had given up on fossil fuel based cars. Unfortunately these cars weren't available for purchase but leased. There is a documentary called "Who killed the electric car?" that now always seems prophetic and slightly apocalyptic view of what went right and ultimately wrong.

I've had many regrets in my life, some have directly altered the life I could be living at this very minute but for the most part the outcome of those decisions have impacted a singular life, mine. I don't know how it would feel like to be responsible for millions of people's livelyhood and future. That's a lot to contend with.

I suppose there is hope because of the new developments/news of the Chevy Volt which could prove to be a light at the end of otherwise ominous hole, however comebacks aren't fast so I'll hold out on buy stock just for a little bit longer.

It interesting how fate works, the people and things we expect to be around can fade away like sand in our hand. We'll try hard to hold on but ultimately it will just slip right through our fingers.

This is what happens when I'm brainstorming and I don't click on save as draft, =)

In other news, my good friends Mike and Jess (or should be Jess and Mike) either way they're engaged. I'm very thrilled and excited for them( in the way girls get when they see twilight previews) What a difference a year makes.

My Indulgence.

I don't know if you can qualify this as an indulgence since it doesn't cost a thing other than time. What is this indulgence you ask, well podcast's..There is a world wide variety of just podcast out there that touch on every single subject you could think of. I use to scorn at the thought of listening to talk radio. I know why I did that, it was due to the fact that I didn't have a choice on the subject. I'm telling on demand radio is the greatest thing on the radio. Yeah, I know this is the first sign of aging but you know what I don't care. The fact that I'm called sir everytime I go somewhere, the fact that I don't turn the channel when the bosley commercial comes on and that I think Jason Statham is very brave. Yes, I am 30, but if the double breasted suit can make a comeback then there's still hope.

I think I should of been a comedian not because of jokes but the stories that I could of told and the people I might of met.

In other note, being a room mate is hard work.

Just a quick question?

As of late I’ve been fascinated with talk radio and more importantly interviewing people. So with that in mind who will let me interview them?

If so, use the link on my blog to email me.

Momentos

Yesterday I was prepared to see this majestic sight. A 100 ft spaceship exploded off the ground and shoot into outer space..but, as likely as that happening the Coast was met by a lighting storm off the north east side. I had gone to the beach on Saturday, I think we were probably like 55 minutes north of it but this time, we were right across the launch pad. Man, That would of been sweet! Anyways the weather has been the only predictable thing in my life right now, I can always count on it to rain. I think it hasn't helped that I'm transitioning right now and alot of things are kinda uncharted waters for me. However the dip hasn't been as cold as I first suspected I just need to get use to water.

I really wish I would of invented twitter, I mean not because its soo amazing but because its soo simple, I'm like thinking to myself, duh! anyways I'm off to lunch, the best part about living so close to work is that I can go home for lunch =)

Making the Grade..

As I'm drifting off into lala land, I start to remember how I would block off four years to really grade my success in something. Kinda like being a silly freshman to a more put together senior. Long after I left school I was still doing this, my career, my love life, my personal growth. I don't know if this was the best way of going about things but I felt that my first year I was really just trying to make sense of what was going on, by the second and third year I was able to understand and predict, leaving the fourth year for me to make a concise decision.
Thinking back now It seems really foolish to think like this. I stayed with some things longer than I should of because I hoped it would get better. It would but it would creep back to where it was before.

Funny, every new step in life is like being a freshman all over again. Unsure, nervous, wanting to make an impression, ultimately hoping for the best and fearing the worst. Well not exactly but I think you know what I mean. I've transitioned in a way that I don't think I would of ever imagined. Looking at it in a larger spectrum its conventional but also very outside my norm. To be honest I miss the build up, the uncertainty of the outcome, sure I'm aware of the possibilities but I think I can accept them now as opposed to earlier where I could only see one way,one outcome, the one I wanted.

Anyways

I introduced Jay Brannan probably 2yrs ago on here. He's done some familiar covers to some mid 90's songs that many of you might recognize.

Jay Brannan

Viva La Evolucion

We forfeit three-fourths of ourselves in order to be like other people.
Arthur Schopenhauer (1788 - 1860)

Viva la "Revolucion".
There was a passive military coup in my birth country,Honduras. This isn't so shocking since its a third world country and stricken with poverty, usually those two ingredients make for a good slow roast of a coup and violence. However my fellow Hondurans are peaceful people, so no shots were fired except of course those shot to wake up the president. He was removed from the country in his pj's to Costa Rica. Wow, you're fired and we're taking your clothes. Don't think that would ever happen here, then again here isn't there. My main concern was that of my family,who were vacationing down there. My family had just successfully planned a massive reunion, which I had missed because I suck, thankfully my Mom & Paul, Alex and Noah left prior to the coup but a majority of my family is still down there including my Father and my siblings.

I just got an email from my brother and dad saying that they're OK. The seem to be OK with the proceedings? They instituted a mandatory curfew of 9p. I guess thats not all too bad, keeps people off the streets and better yet trouble at bay.

Wow June is ending with a bang, 4 day here I come.