Tengo Mucha Hambre!

For some reason I decided to miss lunch today which turns out was a bad idea. Compounded by the fact that I only had an apple, a granola bar, and yogurt for breakfast. OK, when taking inventory it sounds like I had a sizable amount of food this morning but it wasn't I'm starting to feel weak! At least I wasn't like the Sun's coach last night! Poor guy was throwing up on the sideline!!! Gross ( I won't link the vid).

Well the summer is right around the corner, summer wedding are starting soon..Luckily I only have two this summer but there is a good amount of traveling in store for me. I'll be up in Michigan in July, Texas in August, Portland, OR in Sept, and San Pedro Sula Honduras in October! Damn I'm gonna go broke! As a wise man once said, it doesn't matter its all about family ( Ironically enough that man is now bankrupt, go figure!)

hmm, my fingers are getting tired..so with only a couple of minutes till the holiday starts for yours truly I'll just end by saying I hope everyone that reads this or somehow got lost in the Internet tunnel that ended up here have a safe and fun memorial day. Remember its OK to wear white now! =)

Oh, one more thing. BP better clean up this environmental cluster fuck that they have created. This is getting ridiculous! We're staring at you BP!

Its never been this fun to get Lost.

I remember the first episode of Lost and how much I disliked it. I felt completely, well, lost. The mass number of characters, the chaos that ensued from the first episode coupled with my own theories on the plot ( little did I know that it would take more than just a glimpse to deduce this ever evolving story) I was over whelmed and ultimately tuned out.
5 Season would go on and I would be living an cocoon of ignorance bliss. There would be satire references to show that would just go over my head or characters that I would see on movies that people would quickly say
oh there were on LOST. At first I just ignored them, but its popularity seemed to explode the more I resisted falling prey to its enthralling storyline and captivating cast. No, I would not fall into that trap. Instead I would watch horrible shows like One Tree Hill ( which should be cancelled by the way) or Nip/Tuck.
Finally after some pleas from my friends and girl friend did start this belated story. I was so far behind but luckily my stubbornness also benefited me.
Unlike most of the loyal followers/fan who had to wait a week between shows and months between seasons I had the fortunate luck of being able to just watch them straight through. I re-visited season 1, this time with an open mind and a patient attitude. Its took 3 episodes for me to admit that I was terribly wrong about the show, that it was perhaps the greatest adventure to be put on TV. To tell you the truth season's 1-3 where kinda a blur, I was trying to hold on for dear life as the show took me in and out of the space continuum, well not really, but I was hooked. My girlfriend who wanted to re watch the shows with me couldn't keep up. I was on a torrid pace to catch up to season 6 which was a month away.
Now as there's one show left before sunday's finale I'm sad that the story has to end. Like any great story an end must be part of it.I have to say that my favorite season has to be season 5, the story well takes off there and we're able to put things together, not completely but there's a lot answers. My favorite Characters, well I really like Mr.Ecko, Sawyer, Juliette, Hurley, and Miles. Don't get me wrong Jack,Kate, and Locke are great but the role players really make the main characters shine.

Its funny, I would of never really imagined myself being so into a show like this but then again I usually don't like getting LOST either! 

So April just blew by...

This month,May, will be pretty much the same. I went last week to check up on the progress of my townhouse and it should be completed by the end of this month. Which is great, It will be nice to be moved in before the summer. It still feels odd that I'm buying a place here in Florida but I guess its about time to do big boy things. I think I'll give Florida 3 more years and then I'm moving north by that time 9 yrs is more than plenty of time for this part of the world. Anyways I'm feeling like I'm stuck at work. The signs are pointing to a dead end, while I'm extremely grateful for the past 3 yrs one can only go so far in a place that seems to have revolving doors when it comes to Upper Management. I'm hesitant due the current state of the economy though I know their are pocket of opportunities my experience leads me to believe that just like any other opportunity its about knowing the right people at the right time.

Anyways I'm heading up to Grand Rapids this weekend to see the family for mother's day. Its always nice to go back and spend time with my family. Every visit just reminds me more and more how much I miss them..

If I lived in a perfect world I'd be living in Chicago like I've always wanted to, its close enough to family that I can drive to them but far enough to keep them at bay! =)

The day everyting changed.

Finally an interesting thing to talk about..

Its an usually slow day today so I'm able to read and vacuum knowledge at an alarming rate. I came across this acticle @CNN.com regarding a topic I think most people can relate to. Read it and tell me what you think?

Ok after reading that what would your position be? Hmm, Its an interesting position to be in. I never want to get in the way of love. My last girlfriend for as horrible of a person she turned out to be I still loved her dearly because she got me but seeing how most of my friends didn't like her I doubt any of them would date her (besides I hear she's engaged). I can't say the same about other girls but can I really have an objection to there courtship/love affair/entanglement just because I once had a strong connection to their now girlfriend? No, the fact remains that timing has as much to do with love.
I don't know anyone elses feeling about it but its true that time does helps clear up those muddle feelings. I know for me that I analyzed and over analyzed why I did what I did to make it not work or vice versa. What I couldn't see then I see now, the timing just wasn't right and thats something you can't get back.

Honestly It does bother me that a friend would date an ex but just for the reason that I would have to see them again... its weird to see, its uncomfortable, and ultimately its annoying. Sorry I can't be the bigger man and say it doesn't matter but it does matter. There's nothing more annoying then being surrounded by friends and then having an ex there with your friend, it feels like the air was zapped out of the room (the only thing more crappy would be going somewhere and to see a friend and them not telling you that an ex would be there and that their dating..its not funny its just mean-I guess I'm still peeved about that)

Its hard to summarize but the world is filled with wonderful,interesting, and beautiful people; Its hard to believe one couldn't find someone that your friends haven't dated?!

I want a project

So lately I've been having some car nostalogia. One of my first memories of cars have been VW, my parents bought a 1985 VW Jetta brand new, it was a problematic car but I remember how much I loved this car. I've been a vw fan ever since. I've owned a 1997 Passat GLX, a 1990 VW Corrado G60 (which I love and I'll talk about more later on this post), and currently I'm driving an Audi A4 1.8t.

So the corrado was my dream car and I was able to obtain a gem at unbelievable price of 1800 dollars. The car that I drove had 57000 miles on it, ok I was basically given the car by a family friend. I loved that car like I loved my first girlfriend..it was whirlwind love affair. Well I think I'm might of have found her again, the Rado not the girlfriend (she found me). Well not exactly the same one but its same color and model...I'm not a grease monkey but I'm thinking I'm willing to learn...

Are we sick?

We build a strong foundation from the ground up and the other way around.. 

I don't want to say that most of America has a cold war mentality but the Health Care reform bill is inciting such strong reactions. Its almost reminiscent of when Barack won the election. The visuals of McCain's defeat speech you could see white America cry! I don't get it. In the same manner that I don't get why people are freaking out about this bill. The issue of health care has been like mythical monster that everybody insist exist but no one has ever seen it! I'm 31 yrs old, I convinced that I would never see a president of color in my life time and that a health care reform bill would be signed. I was wrong on both cases but the more and more I talked to people there is gap of understanding of how the bill would work. Get informed 

I'm not an advocate for the bill but instead a advocate for change. I'm ok with trying something new because the old way did not work. I suppose there will always be someone opposed to change because it will adversely change their life. I would just like to know who is ok living the way they live while others can't afford the basic medical services. If we live in the most modern country with the best technology and some of the brightest minds; then why do we act like we shouldn't know better? To move past our transgressions we have to let go our past mindsets. There was a time when it was ok to have bathrooms for whites and blacks, when women weren't allowed to vote, and when kings ruled the lands. Isn't it time to take steps towards a modern America and leave the historic ways in the past?

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Its been quite a run.

No man is an island entire of itself;
every man is a piece of the continent,
a part of the main; if a clod be washed away by the sea,
Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as any manner of thy friends
or of thine own were; any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind.
And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.
~John Donne

Its time to turn the lights off on I just Couldn't Help but notice.
Its been an amusing,painful, but always truthful journey. This blog has been a source of emotional release, an open book of sorts, sometimes unintentional, sometimes deliberate.

The world is changing all around me, things never stay constant, time won't allow it, restlessness won't hear of it. So I have to keep on moving on. This blog didn't win an award,it didn't have lots of traffic or break news to any significant event in others people lives. If anything this blog was just.. a blog. The entries almost were filled with grammatical errors,incomplete thoughts, and sometimes downright nonsense..but if you realized that I wrote it to myself then maybe it would make sense to you too.

I think this is the part where I open my eyes...

It would be nice

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Sometimes I feel I try really hard to understand people and it would be great if they would try as hard as me. Not assume, not try to guess and certainly not draw from past experience. It is possible to be dumbfonded sometimes, to obsolutesly have no clue where a person is coming from as long as you allow yourself to learn and not just be mad because you don't understand why I might be a reclusive man from time to time.

Its kinda sucks but I really miss my family right now and knowing that I'm just chilling at my place right now just makes me annoyed that I just didn't go regardless. Life lessons..ugh..

Navidad

SO I posted a new bit, for some reason I keep on forgetting that I'm latino. I think its because growing up people never knew what I was. I thought It was obvious but I guess the last name threw people off. I kid.

Anyways you should check Anjelah Johnson, she's hott and funny. Not that it matters that she's hott(the extra 't' is because I want to emphasis she's really pretty) but I guess that's why I found out she was funny. Go figure!? * ok she's not that hot but she's funny..

Usually I say something corny like love those around you and yourself or its more important to give than get. Well screw that, wisdom to live by. If you're with someone that gives you a gift that would otherwise be intended for an elderly woman or man. Please just RUN! No good will come from it. See its all in the gift, people that care about you don't give you shitty gifts. See I was reading the signs, Betty bop wallet,VHS tape that didn't work, break maker..these are things that should have triggered some concern, instead I just kept on thinking they were gag gifts. Don't be the gag.

OK so that was my psa.

Feliz Navidad..
and a Happy New Year!

Late Night

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Apparently Leeloo like the christmas tree lights because she gets all hyper at night when I turn them on. Here I was able capture being naughty. She cracks me up!

Ah shit, I became a cat lover, how annoying is that!

Hanukkah

I'm not Jewish but it eerie how much my up bringing was based on the Jewish laws.
I wasn't allowed to eat pork, every Friday at sundown I had to turn off the tv and celebrate the sabbath. We went to church on Saturday's and we didn't go out to eat or pay for on sabbath. I remember waiting till Saturday night and then we go do stuff. I loved and hated the winter's. Sundown was at 5p but then it was over by 5p the next day. Oh, we gave 10% of your money back to church.. Now I know I didn't go synagogue or go to Hebrew school but I did go to a christian school where this lifestyle was reinforced so If we're being real I'm a pseudo Jew. To top it off I kept on being told about how I was going to persecuted for my beliefs,that's right just like the Jewish followers were! Kinda weird!

Growing up I never knew why so many people fought about religion, race, money...we start with nothing and when we die we go the same way we came. Race, that's a mystery to me, who really cares what color you are if you're mind,heart, and soul are kind. Which leads me to religion, I think we're reading the same book, believing in the same thing we just have different versions and names for the characters. I believe in God, you might believe in Allah..They might as well be the same person since they teach same thing.

Full and Heavy..

I had an internal victory. I sometimes have a uncontrollable urge to buy stuff, perhaps its because I grew up poor and never had shit. Come to think of it I know a lot of friends that had similar childhoods and they say the same thing. I know its not a scientific fact that if you're poor you're going to have a spending problem but it does make sense. Unfortunately this type of behavior will also cause you to be poor, hence a evil cycle begins again! Anyways that topic is for another time. A couple months ago I made a horrible mistake of buying a TV from a friend, it was cheap but this monstrosity is abnormally large and heavy(which is why its a monstrosity!!). At this moment it is the thorn to my side, It asthetically just ruins my living room. Instead of having a wonderful flat panel plasma hanging on the wall I have this beast eating up precious space. It works just fine and the picture isn't bad for a $100 tv. So now that you have a backstory I'll go ahead with the story. Black friday came and went, I didn't buy a tv not once but 3 times I talked myself out of buying what visual urges had me yearning for.

Why would I do that, you ask. Well I guess I'm acting like a grown ass man ( my favorite cliche) and acted responsible. Sure I could of bought it and it would of been fine but then I think about how silly it would be have this tv in my living room and then tell one of my best friends I can't come to their wedding because I'm watching my money on the wall instead of having a kick ass time in Scotland. So the tv will have to wait until at least after I finalize my travel arrangements.

Yes, yes, how responsible of me..well I rationalized another buy, a nice kenneth cole suit but at least I can wear it to wedding!

Vacant Amusement park

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The great wall of Tucker

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I remember growing up and my mama would say to me to watch that tone lester francisco (whenever you hear your middle name its not a good thing) now at the ripe age of 30 I understand what she means. There's a right way and a wrong way to talk to someone, Its presented itself a couple time in the past weeks where I was being spoken to and I didn't appreciate the manner in which I was being spoken to, at that point I don't care what you're saying to me and what you're saying because I've already made my mind that you crossed that proverbial line where you're out of line. I mean I don't have a problem being wrong but don't talk to me like I'm a kid because that drives me up the wall and chances are I might go through the wall, I kid.

Anyways I'm preparing my stomach for the massacre that will happen tomorrow. I'm a bit worried because we hit up some Taco's last night and it was all you can eat, however I didn't even make it to a second plate? I talk a big game but I really can't put anything away. The skinny guys are really the buffet manager worst nightmare, they some how can eat like hogs!

So yeah, hopefully this thanksgiving will be more giving than last year's.

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Well I had this nice entry about some relevant things but as usual when I expect technology to work it fails me every time. So now you have this picture of me touch Big Boy in a very odd manner. Some of you might even wonder why I would be at a Big Boy to begin with, well they have good hearty, warm meals at a price that won't break the bank (I kinda made that up).

Also I want to let everyone know that I did not save a lot on my car insurance, in fact I'm paying way too much, thank you very much Geico!

Seriously though I want to talk to you about an ongoing problem, the Economy. I'm sure we all sit down and watch the news or read the paper (online) but do we really understand it. I encourage you to get informed about how your money works for you. There is great program on NPR called Planet Money. Check it out. Here is there blog. http://www.npr.org/blogs/money/ but please don't tell em I sent you.

So there's 59 days left.

I mean not that anyone cares but I'm one of those people that goes to work and checks off the days like a crazy inmate serving time, I don't know what happens at the end, maybe unemployment.

I remember when I quit a job and I was like acting like I was going on summer break, I was literally so happy to be unemployed! Now I'd probably cry, I'd be pulling out whatever hair I had left and like saying eerie things in corner like " I did my best, I did my best!"

I'm soo weird, I always think I'm going to win the lotto..but its not good because I'll have these like inner turmoil about who I'm going to give money to and then I realize that I have a huge family and that perhaps 60 millions dollars won't be enough to take care of them. I get soo stressed about it that by the time the lotto drawings come out I'm praying that I didn't win.

Yeah, crazy. Its like the people that don't play the lotto till like its 100 million. I'll ask them why don't play any other time and they look at me like

"why would I bother on 20 million" ah, american's!

Anyways my co-workers are on edge, its amazing how much we hate our boss! Like one of my co-workers literally said that he had to fight going all black on her and he's black.

I guess I need to start working on my resume, I have that 2yr itch, where I'm feeling crazy and I need to go on summer break.

Smooth till the last drop..

more weddings
more kids
more of alot of things.

I guess there isn't room for les in that....

Come Fly with me..

So I apparently was either too sick or too busy to catch the balloon boy fiasco! I caught wind of it last night when Tucker is asking me what I think about it. I thought it was a YouTube thing but then it was CNN and all over the place. Apparently it the kids would later say they did it for the show! Ha ha. I don't know about you but I really don't think I would want to be on TV because of tragedy or for that matter something awesome. I remember when they had that bounty for Osama, I think it was 25 million tax free. I kept on thinking there is no way anyone would survive that, it would be like Patriot Games but worse.

Which make me think I wonder if Dog the bounty hunter could go over there and find him? I can see it now, it would be a AE special. They'd have Dog and his redneck family asking everyone about where Osama is, camping out at his alleged cave screaming things like "You know we know that you're hear, you better make it easy for yourself brah". All the while sticking out like snow in the desert( think about it before you dismiss it).

Then in some miraculous turn in events, around the 45min mark, they'd catch a break and find Osama coming back from one of his terrorist training camps. You know he'd be walking into his cave all cool, maybe drinking a sharbat and listening to his Ipod. Then DOG and his 20 illegitimate children in all their mullet glory would surround him with there spray guns.

That's as far as I've gotten with this story, the ending could get messy.

Anyways I've been incredible weak most of the week since I'm fighting some sort of unknown sickness but I've finally broke through it. Its Friday and I'm looking to chill this weekend.

I don't know if anyone reads this but if you do, have a great weekend.

I guess I didn't get the memo..

Holy crap, its going to be October tomorrow. This morning fall made an appearance, granted in south that just means cooler morning since the leave don't change colors here. Lots has been going on around me but not really to me. I have yet another wedding I'm in but this one should be hella fun ( I think the key is to be involved in the wedding party but not too involved cuz then you get to enjoy it-you should write that down.)



Babies seem to be popping out left and right. Quite frankly Facebook has been converted into babybook but then again I think that just represents how most of my friends are getting down. Well roughly at least nine month ago.

I can't seem to get the Miley Cyrus song outta of my head. Its one of those stupid songs that makes you move. If you're driving your nodding your head or my case I'm shaking my ass. Its disturbing. I don't know if its a downgrade on my taste or my taste has changed. I use to hate talk radio and now If I'm not listening to a podcast at work I'm feeling restless!

Hmm, I'm learning that my body and my mine are no longer equals. My mine is capable of doing incredible things however...my body can't execute these feats anymore (Stretching is essential for longevity, write that down.)

What is the point of this entry, I guess I'm just talking here. Life (yes there is a life lesson in here) is a carousel, I think I got lost in the turbulence that sometimes comes with living and have now noticed that I'm back to where I wanted to be before I lost my way. Sure I've got some scars and I've some wounds that are mending but I'm on the right track again. ( I should write that down!)