Pain shoots through my hands
These long lonely nights
Are making me crazy
Morning won't come fast enough
Just a face in the Crowd as I let them pass me by

Faith gone from your eyes
Each word leaves as fast as it came
You're leaving me further away
so when that day comes
I've got no easy way to cry

As I think of you leave
I'm trapped inside, glued to my chair.
everywhere I go I find you
everything connects you to my mind
How right it all should be.

I expected something more, I wanted soo much more.
every time I got close I was left so far, so far behind.
If that's what this is about, this thing that we're in
then I'm ready, I'm willing, I'm for your war.

If you expect that I'll wither away like flowers on your wall
then perhaps you should rethink you're approach, I'm not leaving and I'm not going to fall.
I'm pushing away thoughts and fighting back tears
because I'm soo close to losing everything that we've gained in the past few years.

For as far as you might be, the distance, the time, I can feel you in my heart, you reside there
You've never left,
when I sleep, I sleep thinking of you,
when I dream, I dream of about being with you.

I wanna be next to you.
I need to be next to you.

Sitting on the bed enduring your punch

can’t pay attention to the sound of anyone

a little more numb, a little more scared

every minute more unprepared

I felt my heart break today

everything I loved got swept in tears

I want to start over, I want to be winning, smiling, being next to you

I'm way out of sync from the beginning, way to far from where we began.

I wanna hurry home to you

put my arms around you, be slow, do a show for you

and crack you up

Looking for somewhere to stand and stay

I leaned on the wall and the wall leaned away

Can I get a minute of not being nervous

and not thinking of being sick

My legs are heavy, my legs are pins

I liked to be honest, I'm losing my shit, I wish I was better but I can't help but feel it

I wanna hurry home to you, put my arms around you,

be slow, do a show for you

and crack you up

You know I dreamed about you

for twenty-nine years before I saw you

You know I dreamed about you

I missed you for twenty-nine years

You know I dreamed about you

for twenty-nine years before I saw you

You know I dreamed about you

I missed you for twenty-nine years

Big day for phone lovers around the world

So if you were hmmm, lucky enough to stand in line to pick up the new 3G Iphone today well I applaud you for taking that dive into technology heaven. Apparently you'll be able to control your Itunes on your computer from your phone like a remote control..here a link to the demo.
this is what happens when you trying leaving Verizon

sorry thats the wrong clip, this is the one I think you should check out

remote

So yeah after seeing that and all the hoopla I'm a bit on edge, I really need my Iphone Fix, so if anyone wants to sell me their old Iphones, yeah..I'm up for it..

I passed a cell phone store this morning on the way to work but no one was waiting outside for the Iphone there, I don't know maybe it was the sign that turned them off, ha ha..get it..have a great weekend.

Doodle of words..

How do you say goodbye to someone you can't imagine living without...
when words won't suffice to express how your life will be a void..
Oh to save our time together, I'd place it in a time capsule for others to find
so that people could know what It means to be in love.

Once, I thought I was great..No thing, no one could bind me
but then you came along and my sun rised and set with you.
My armor melted down and your lovely grace left me standing in place.
I thought I was living but I'd been sleepin until you.

How do you say goodbye to someone you can't imagine living without?
I would miss your face, the smell of your skin and the sound of your dear voice.
You terrorized me with your perfect lips, from them I heard love and lust
from them i ate love and from this they feed off this mess.

Even now, as I sit here drenched in the summer rain waiting for you I can't walk away..
you were the longest journey I've had but its been worth it if you're waiting at the end.

Sometimes timing has everything to do with it.

I don't know what it is about taking pictures of things that don't really fit or that some how are out of place. This was taken outside of a Firstwatch, I love Firstwatch and apparently so does this small patron that was coming in for his usual, the Floridian French Toast, he was told to make sure to pay his tab before he left. He responded by saying " Just put it on my Bill"

:)

HA, HA..yeah I know its corny...

Its just a name!

So a few of us ( Me,Bakes, Tical, and Justin) went to Vampire Weekend. There was a ticket available for this activity but every time they asked for the name of the concert they made this weird face like" Gross, how you could go to a vampire weekend!?"

Yeah, you all missed out, Erin and Kristy from PR's! Losers....

So yeah we get there and Club Firestone isn't gritty and cave like, I've been all wrong about that place...the show, because it was a show was great!! For those that don't like live concerts its crucial that you listen to all the songs of the band you're going to go, when you know the words or at least know a little bit of the words makes a huge difference! That's all I'm saying.

Another thing I found out this weekend is that women are as crazy and evil as men are. There isn't a difference between what a man will do and what a women would do. You can't say that "a woman would never do that" because you know what, there's nothing that a women is incapable of doing! I'll leave it at that.

OH, i do give a freak about an Oxford Comma. I might of misued it in this post.

Private Blogs

In my honest opinion I think having a private blog is perhaps the dumbest thing I've ever heard of, you have a blog. What is a blog= A frequently updated journal or diary usually, often hosted by a third party. The last part is the most crucial part, often hosted by a third party. That means that its really not private if you're hosting on a free website like blogspot/blogger. SO who are you trying to fool?I mean if you really want to write secrets or shit that you don't want anyone to read about, write in your little diary and store it under your pillow. Anyways just a pet peeve.

To you..

No one knows where we’ll go from here
Could I kiss you or would that be weird
Are we sure or are we somewhere in between?
Do you wanna be free
That place where we'd be.., Cuz in our minds we need it
But I'd be no where near you and you'd be no where near me.
A Move to an unknown City
Will you let go of my hand?
Leave the things on the doorstep
Was there no way around it
Will this be our last dance?
Fall asleep with the music on mi amor
Be back again
Do you wanna see it?
Our place,
Cuz in my mind I’ve been there
And there’s no one there but you and me
In the morning I’ll find you again
Let the light shine the way
Down a road that’s leading me somewhere I've never known
And there’s no way around it
Will this be our last dance?
Fall asleep with the music mi amor
I'll Be there with you again.

Taking things for granted

So as I surveyed today's headlines I was reminded that a good day for me might mean a day from hell for someone else.
I wasn't able to celebrate with my Ma yesterday for the mere fact that with ever growing prices in fuel tickets to Grand Rapids are increasingly more expensive. Though according to a CNN article Americans are one among those who pay less for fuel than the rest of the world
Cheap Gas

I suppose that's a comforting notion if I weren't paying 40+ at the gas pump to just go to work every day! I mean literally don't drive anywhere that requires more than a hour drive. The lure of the open road, though very rare in Central Florida, is all but shot into a mist of evaporated gas fumes. I just can't justify driving for the sake of driving. I know there are other things that are more pressing than gas prices, like the democratic nomination, the increase of killer weather patterns-in the past week there have been epic killer cyclones, earthquakes, tornado's, and famine's just terrorizing the world. I mean its not hard to stop and listen to what is going on around you to realize that we're at a pivotal point in the planet's existence. I don't want to say that we're at a breaking point because I don't really know what that means in today's age but I feel like a wave of change is coming. This country is about to have either a woman running for president or a ex black Muslim. I would of never thought that would be possible, at least while I was still relatively young ( though I don't' think I'm young anymore! )

Anyways, Its hard to say that nothing happened this weekend when so much is happening to others..I suppose I take normalcy for granted..

Can't stop listening to this song!

So I was watching one of my guilty pleasures on monday night after a ho hum monday at work...anyways the typical whatever music was playing in the background but I have to say that I truly enjoy the music tags on the tops of the screen because I was able to find this band and there awesome song in a breeze!! The band's name is Carolina liar and the song is called I'm Not Over. I love it..so yeah..that's what I'm doing right now at work...besides taking some skill set courses..

I'm not Over

200th post

So yeah, this marks my 200th post on this particular blog, though I've posted well over 1000 entries in random blogs I've set up through out WWW. Today, of all days is Earth Day! I'm excited to learn more about how our fellow man and woman strive to make others aware that there might be a 6 billion of us but there is only 1 earth! To be reminded of this is to be self aware of how utterly mortal we are. We awe ourselves with technological advances and scientific discoveries but we still have not over come the fact we're bound to this planet.
I believe that we are aware of ways to reduce our carbon footprints, that we're aware of being comfortable some times is really being lazy like driving our car to the store when its less than a mile away. How keeping our lights on all day or running the AC when its 70 degrees outside is just plain, wrong.
I'm talking to myself right now, because for as much as I want to be able to say that I'm on the right track of being a more earth conscience person I'm not. I forget to recycle, I drive to the store, and run a fan when maybe i shouldn't but I'm aware of it, are you?

I found a link that I want to share, its called Walking and it lets you put in your address to see how close things are to you that could free you from driving your car everywhere. Generally speaking if you score in the 90's you have no excuse to be using your car as much as you do. Granted there exceptions but I'm not here to judge.

I remember 10 yrs ago when Green was more of a radical movement then a responsibility. I wonder where 10 yrs from now will bring us. I hope mandatory isn't one of the description involved because that would mean that we're at the brink of no return.

brainstorming in the late morning

I don't know how it got away from me. I haven't really written anything about me in some time. I mean I've had some interesting stuff happen, or at least had a experience or two that was worth blogging about. Like just this past weekend this old Spanish man pointed out to me Saddam Hussein's son, apparently he works at a parking lot garage! Yeah, I mean he went on to say that although he looked spanish he indeed spoke no Spanish. I use to think that alot of people looked Spanish. I had a similar experience back in high school when i went up to band camp and one of the guys we were hangin with was Filipino but he looked like he was Spanish so I was like you speak Spanish and he was alike no man! I'm Filipino and I was like well you look like you're Spanish as if that was reason enough to say what I did. Sorry about that Mike D.

Moving on, I would like to post a little pic of my work area.. OK nevermind I guess I won't be posting a picture to this entry because I just got some weird error message or whatever. Gosh I feel bored just writing this...I think I would of clicked next by ....now..

Well the least I can do is tell you about this sweet website, www.mobile17.com. There is a way to add ring tone's to your multimedia phone by uploading your favorite music up to this site and they'll send it back to you in a converted format that you can then add a ring tone! OH yeah, its free! I feel like I've contributed to the greater good posting this..

So I'll end by writing a little poem.

What comes to mind when I think of thee, elusive slow hands
but I'm over it now like low places like home. That lonely track 11 ride back,
were only ashes are left to remember how I run from what really scares me.
I'm scared that I need love! But instead I settle for something less, like eating pumpkin soup what is a man to do? I weather on because I know Change is Gonna Come and The bleeding heart show that is my life will See you again.
Perhaps in NYC where Ballads of a Paralysed Citizen ring true.
As time goes by The more I see you with Yoshimi Battle the pink robot I feel like Hayling.
So with that I say Goodnight and GO.


( I wrote a poem from the song titles on my Itunes party shuffle, I just kept on pressing next till i couldn't write anymore...and I didn't skip any titles hence the Yoshimi Battle the Pink Robot reference!)

Thank Goodness its Thursday!

Gosh,,,

I have nothing to talk...I mean seriously I have nothing to say. I ate Vegan food this past weekend and it allowed to leave a uncomfortable situation. You know its interesting but I never feel that comfortable among people that don't get my humor, like I know there's nothing wrong with me so it just makes me weary to think that there are people out there that don't laugh at things that are funny. Also I'm coming to find out that I'm Intimidated by large number of women gathering around each other like bees at the local bee hive... bzzzz, so,bzzzz,how's Rick's new job,bzzz,oh my gosh,bzzzz,looks who's here,bzzz,who invited him,bzzzzz,...yeah no thanks. I know why I left, the need to be fake was trumped by the fact that I keeps it real. I think the more I try to be fake the more I realize how much I freaking hate ( I really wanted to swear) it. Some groups are never to be mixed. They're like oil and water, sure you can add some soap to dilute what made them be oil and water but at the end of the night, baby, we still don't mix.

I don't know, I just feel really uneasy lately, like I'm missing something really big...ok, I check the lotto numbers so I don't have to worry about that.

On a lighter note, I went to the Birds of Prey locale to check out some birds of prey, apparently they thought it was funny to have a caracara named Lester that was Mexican. Bitches I'm not Mexican. I'm not even really Honduran, I'm as much of a American as the next guy, Its sad, I know I wish I was French so at least my appreciation for poppy music could be explained.

Oh look its 3, gotta run.

till next time.

Montreal...

So I'm heading up to Montreal next week. I have to say that I'm excited to see North America's answer to European city life. What if I like Montreal so much that I want to come back and live there! oui,oui! I have to learn some phrases so I can practice with random people I plan on. Case in point:

Excusez-moi, je ne peux m'empêcher de remarquer que vous ne vous rasez les aisselles aujourd'hui? Pardon me, I couldn't help but noticed you didn't shave your armpits today!

Pourquoi oui, je profiter d'un bon morceau de viande savoureuse cheval de temps en temps. Why yes, I do enjoy a good piece of tasty horse meat from time to time.

or my favorite.

Je n'étais pas d'accord lorsque le mot français est tombé de pain grillé, et je n'ai pas envie de frites ou français. Mais je ne jouissent d'un bon film de temps en temps suivi par un expresso et une grande conversation.

anyways, hopefully the border patrol won't give me Merde because I've been in Canada with two weeks of my last visit.

Adieu, n'oubliez pas de transformer ces horloges une heure par tête le samedi soir. Je déteste avoir à vous manquez une délicieuse rencontre avec un être aimé!

I've been away for a while..

Ok, not really the fact is that I've been busy at work and that's when I usually blog but It feels like I'm getting paid to do it but I'm really not. So what has been going on? I was up to Toronto for my birthday recently and I was freezing my bum bum because this Texan Boy, Turned Michigan Guy, and now Florida Man has had his blood thinned just like his hair. I bought a coat and left up there for my future trips, which is actually next week. Holly and I are taking a vacation together like real adults even though the rents are annoyed, which I mean I get but we're not little kids, So perhaps some perspective is needed. Anyways, we're heading to Montreal and Quebec City; I don't know if my rambling french will be sufficient since I really don't know how to formulate a sentence and Holly knows no French! Ha ha, it should be fun. In other news, Holly was recently presented with keys to her new Townhouse, I was able to see it this last time up there. Its really cute, I'm sure she'll have it looking great! Which makes me think that I'm ready to not have anymore roommates. What else, I feel like I've been in a black hole where no news comes in or out! I mean things are looking good right now and that's really important. I'm starting to feel some clarity and peace of mind which hasn't been the case for a while, If i could only get to the gym so I can get the body part down!

OH, I have some video clips of holly sledding and eating it, they're pretty funny..even with my horrible commentary! I'll post soon.

Well this was a bit of a dull blog but I've got some ideas that I'd like to share with you but baby steps first..baby steps..

Peace out (said in a manly ghetto voice)
:)

You are...Love.

I have a couple of words to describe what you are....but I found some that would do just as well....

........You feed other people's parking meters

You encourage the eating of ice cream

You would somersault in sand with me

You talk to loners, you ask how's your week

You give love to all and give love to me

You're obsessed with hiding the sticks and stones

When I fear the unknown You feel like home, you feel like home

You put my feet back on the ground

Did you know you brought me around

You were sweet, and you were sound

You saved me

You're the warmth in my summer breeze

You're the ivory to my ebony keys

You would share your last jelly bean

You would somersault in sand with me

You put my feet back on the ground

Did you know you brought me around

You were sweet and you were sound

You saved me

You put my feet back on the ground

Did you know you brought me around

You were sweet and you were sound

See I had shrunk yet still you wore me around

And 'round and 'round.....~Zero 7.

One in a while you find something really funny.

SO I was on someone's Myspace page and I clicked on this video of this cute girl who I thought would be singing a song, You know those youtube specials of someone covering a song!? I was way off, I think I found a kindred spirit!
Quarter Life

SO I think this girl might be out of her freaking mind, which sometimes I feel i get that rap too! I'm not saying that I want to meet this girl because chances are I'd hate her in person! Like you're funny but if you pull any of that funny stuff on me I'll send you to the moon kind of deals! You feel me?

But back to Sarah Hyland, she's a bit off and maybe downright crazy but if you have time and a sense of humor check her out..Funny Videos of Sarah