Friday, June 08, 2007

YOu and I


I don't know why its always more enjoyable to read other peoples thoughts then to formulate my own. I suppose that I get bored thinking about it and then writing it. I wish the didn't do away with the Audio blog. I'm more of a people kind of person, though I find it hard to look at people straight in the eye because it can become quite intense not sexually mind you but I think you can really tell what people are thinking when you look into their eyes. I don't think I'm ready for most people to know what I'm thinking. I don't think they're ready to know that, do you follow. I'm all about those words, pages,pages and more forwards of words.

SO with that in mind I'll just say a bit or two about what is going on...


How can you stare at that wall without wanting to run through it? Doesn't feel right, so off so un familiar to feel the way that I feel. Turn away from what I've known to possibly chase a dream that has no really end in sight. Stubborness filled with notions that make sense to me and only me. Get yourself up and to only have you get knocked down again. Its time to take a chance because all the wrong reason will always be there. You could sleep on it, sleep till you can't do anything but get up and face it. No pity party, no toast here, just plain ol life looking right at you and seeing you for what you really are, can't run from it and you can't hide from it. There's no cute little tabs to categorize how I'm feeling, no quick fix online to make me feel better. I can laugh aloud in front of you but what really keeps up at night is the unchanging thought that keeps me awake, I drown the voices with the music but the music always stops and there it is again! I won't worry my life away....


3 comments:

some poems don't rhyme said...

hmmm. well, if nothing else, you look hot in this pic.

maybe you should just use photos to describe your thoughts.

Kendra said...

sending thoughts your way. don't know what is going on but i wish the best for you!! =)

Anonymous said...

Reading that, Im guessing you are a thinker, and people dissappoint you, and you feel that no one understands you.