Explorer

So its amazing how someone can be soo unlucky and then become so fortunate!  Jess this is you! How is it  that you have perfect strangers treat you like you were one of there own children! Its unbelievable You got a car! A damn car. Its sorta of makes me think that perhaps nannies have the best job that no one talks about. You hang out with kids all day, eat junk food, play, watch t.v, and get ridiculous presents! Who would of thought that this would be considered a job? Well, I for one am happy for you. Its about time you get treated well. Ironically it was strangers that treat you like a queen.

~I sometimes find myself asking where did the past 4 years of my life go? Its hard to comprehend how fast time flys, I blink and its gone. I sometimes would like to save moments in my life in a jar and open that bad boy later on life so I can truly enjoy it. I wish I could say that I have taken all the opportunities that have been given to me but then again I wish I could of re-live my life again, perhaps not necessarily to change things but to enjoy them more, experiences, friendships, and yes knowledge as well. Somewhere there's a epic song playing as I'm writing this, in my head this entry happens to be so heartfelt and perhaps introspective..Ignorance is bliss. I should be sleeping but I can't seem to let my eyes close..

~Things aren't always as they're suppose to be if they where I would never have anything write about. Its odd the most important things in life we have no choice in, our family, our looks, and who will fall in love with along the way.

~I had an idea today for a movie plot, it seemed so "fetch" in my head, the plot was tight,the characters had good range, and the climax was epic. I explained it to David and it didn't make any damn sense and it had already been done before too!

~Who ever said that car shopping was fun is a damn fool, most of us don't drive cars we love but cars we can afford. Sure I'm sure there are some of you who love Honda Civics or perhaps the occasional domestic treat. Why can't a Porsche be a affordable car

~I wonder what the cool people from high school are doing now?

~Why am I still up writing this????????????

Currently listening to Clocks...coldplay in a week or so..

Goodnight

after reading this entry, i realized i should of been in bed hours ago.

Give me your hand to hold
'Cause I can't stand to love alone
And
love alone is not enough to hold us up
We've got to touch your robe
So
swing your robe down low
Swing your robe down low~ Cademon's Call, Love alone.

I had forgetten how much i love that chorus, it so great because i can't sing all harmony style, ah yes love it. Anyways today is my B-day (hold for congrat and well wishes) thank you, thank you're all so kind. I would like to say that i really don't feel that different most of don't after 21. All i think about as i get older is "damn i have to get my shit together because i can't hide behind my age" ok not really..

What i really wanted to write was the old saying that you should always wear clean underwear because you don't know when you might be in the hospital, ok i don't remember how it exactly went but it sounded something like that.. As i was walking of the hosptial the other day ( i work at a hospital so don't worry i wasn't sick) i saw this person waiting to be picked up, he had his luggage and he had just being discharged from the hospital which is nothing new however the attire that this patient had was amazing..I had to sit down to make sure i was seeing what i thought i was seeing..so i took out my trusty camera phone and took a picture of the one-NEO!

I couldn't believe it.. the rest of the day i kept on thinking "what is the matrix" ..

I've leave you with this words to ponder..

My life is brilliant.My love is pure.I saw an angel.Of that I'm sure.She smiled at me on the subway.She was with another man.But I won't lose no sleep on that,'Cause I've got a plan.You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.I saw you face in a crowded place,And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you.Yeah, she caught my eye,As we walked on by.She could see from my face that I was,Fucking high,And I don't think that I'll see her again,But we shared a moment that will last till the end.You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.I saw you face in a crowded place,And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you.You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.There must be an angel with a smile on her face,When she thought up that I should be with you.But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you. Thanks James

Happy Valentine's Day

I don't know if this is really a holiday or just an excuse to go out on a date...you be the judge. I'm not sure if candy will be part of your day, or even flowers? Its really not significant of a day unless of course its your birthday and in that case happy birthday. You shouldn't need a day to let someone know that you love them, everyday is a good day for that. I've read the duldrums of this day, people get depressed, anixous, or really happy because of valentines day. I tend to look at it this way, theres just 4 more days to my birthday. hahaha...but on a more serious note, i just want to say happy valentine's to my valentine..

Love ya HAT!

A stranger with Candy

As I was getting ready to go to bed at 1:30 this morning I saw that "Strangers with Candy" was airing next, there was like 5 shows they were playing back to back. I recorded them for my viewing pleasure! It was a treat! Amy Sedaris is freaking hilarious. I mean the dialogue is genius and totally not politically correct but neither is most of America, which makes for some great moments, but what really gets me is how ugly she is! Amy Cedric isn't ugly but Gerri Blanke is.
See, that's what she looks like during the show! Which bring me to my next point. Its hard for good looking people to be really funny. I mean not just "that person is really funny kind of funny" but funny that they make a living being funny. Its a hard niche and being good looking doesn't help in the comedy business. Can you name one good looking comedian!! Let me see, I can't think of one right now and Jennifer anniston doesn't count. She's an actress, she doesn't tell jokes. For those of you that will bring up her stint on the short lived show, The Edge.

Well I hope this was at least entertaining. Just for those who where wondering what I didn't last night and i know theres some of you out there they were wondering, I spent 2 hours at Burlington Coat Factory just being amazed how much cheap stuff they had...It was like a hidden treasure. I mean its ghetto, but ghetto Fabulous!

A puff of Coolness

Originally uploaded by Porcelain Princess.

Through out the years Cigarettes have accumulated a variety of nicknames such as "smokes", "butts", "squares" "cigs","ciggies", "stogs", "stogies", "snouts", "tabs" , "loosey" , "backwards", "bogeys", "boges", "gorts", "ciggy wiggy dilly's", "darts", "straights" (for factory rolled ones), "dugans" (especially in NYC), "hairy rags", "hausersticks", "jacks", "grits", "grants" (A common phrase used for asking someone for a cigarette is "Can you grant me a grant?"), "tailies" (Only in New Zealand) and "fags". As you see there is no shortage of nicknames for this activity that has been going on for as long as human have been in existence. One could say, let me be the one to say that it was a tobacco was a big culprit of slavery. How? Tobacco was a cash cow for the southern colonies/states; more workers where needed to harvest the fields, no one wanted to do it so a search for free labor was on the way. Anyways I don't want to start this as a Black history month praise because I'm not black. What I am is intrigued with smoking. The act, the sensation, the commitment to something that gives so little back for the efforts. I've never smoked, please don't feel sorry for me or happy for me it was a conscious decision due to my love for sports and my health it wasn't because I wasn't curious. I remember asking my mother when I was younger if she had smoked when she was younger and yeah she did her share of smoking but she stopped for me. I asked why she did it and if it tasted like anything. To which she replied "I was stupid and young" and "no it didn't taste like anything". I suppose that kept my temptation at bay, I was a husky boy that liked to eat and if didn't taste like anything I didn't want to put it my mouth. However that discipline would fade as I got older. Today well I think I'm still intrigued by it but simply by the social camaraderie. Smokers stick together, they all do it outside,in bars, in there cars, from time to time they'll share cigs, buy cigs from each other, and always share a light. What other vice do you have people doing that? I sure as hell wouldn't share my drink with anyone. Granted I think I really just want to try it because I want to see if I really do look cool. Will a black and white shot of me taking a "drag" make me look hard, cool, sexy, or any other adjective associated with this act. I don't know? Maybe Everyone is right and I'm wrong for not ever trying it, or maybe they're just puffing hot air for no damn reason?

We like to party..

With Mardi Gra just a week away at universal i had to bring out my party hat. Yes, i like to party..how else would you explain this hat?

I 'm sorry I'm not able to understand you?

I sometimes wonder what other people do, not the 88.9% of people that work a 8-5 or whatever your hours might be, at 12:24am on a Wednesday morning? I myself, find that blogging is a good way to pass a couple of minutes that I otherwise would be sleeping. Granted, a lot of this has to do that I chose to leave my job because I hated it and my education, that I'm still paying for and will for the next 20 yrs has not produced a job that bring me the means of paying for this over priced Christian education. If you're quick you can sense the frustration that I am going through. Someone said to me the other day how lucky I was?? I don't know why, I don't feel lucky. I've gotten the short end of the stick for most of my life. Everyone can say that I'm sure but I can't verify your stories and experiences, I can only validate mine. I won't take time to tell you my quarrels or plight, that's not really why I'm venting at 12:28am. I would just like to have my thoughts be known, sometimes you don't want people to know what you're thinking and sometimes you do, right now is that time! I think I'm coming to the conclusion that life has some part that involves kissing some ass, I however have not found that happy medium. I don't know if I sometimes wish I could just start over or just have it end.. no I'm not suicidal. Just a little bit tired of dealing with the lack luster outcomes of my fruits of work/efforts. This has nothing to do with work, I don't know anyone that is making a difference in other people's life that it has changed the way they live their own lives, in others when I say that I'm really looking to see what I want to do in my life that doesn't just mean where do I want to work,live, and play. I'm really thinking about whether my life is going towards a path of purpose, mission, or making a difference. I don't know what or how to do that yet but i hope to find out soon.