Where has the time gone?

Its sucks, time doesn't stop, even when it feels like you're stuck in slow motion, people have moved on, life has moved on. I can close my eyes right now and think back 10 yrs, I was back in Michigan in my first qtr at Andrews, I remember thinking how much I hated being there. It was a tough time period for me because I didn't know many people ironically I came away with a bucket load of friendships I still have today. I don't want to get all melancholy, the reality of it is that I'm a sensitive person, emotional would actually be a better way to describe me. aaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

I feel like shit..I still feel like shit..I'm trying really hard to move on, it might be Nov for everyone else but it still feels like its July to me...at this very moment I find it hard to enjoy the things that I use to enjoy. I laugh, I smile, I jump, I run, I drink and I eat...but they don't feel the same right now.... I don't really want to talk about it because I know people don't  want to hear it but its my life righ tnow and when it comes out its because its fucking consuming me..it fuels my anger, it charges my disappointment, and it enhances my vulnerability...I don't have a choice, its just to much to keep it inside. Why can I say this ..well this blog is like a mirror to me, I don't see anyone else but me. I'm talking aloud, I can't choose who will hear me..

All I have are words, words can reach where my eyes can't see

they encompass a feeling but they can't tell the whole story about me

So I find songs that can resonate about my pain

These ain't songs about hate but I know I'll never love the same.

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In the night, I hear 'em talk,

the coldest story ever told

Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..

How could you be so heartless?

Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo

Just remember that you talkin' to me though

You know need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo

I mean after all the things that we've been through

I mean after all the things we got into

Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me

Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me

And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me

So you walk around like you don't know me

You got a new friend, well I got homies

But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night, I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told

Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..

How could you be so heartless?

Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

How could be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know..

I decided we weren't gon' speak so

Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone

Why does she be so mad at me fo'

Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold

I won't stop, I won't mess my groove up

'Cause I already know how this thing go

You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me

They say that they don't see what you see in me

You wait a couple months then you gon' see

You'll never find nobody better than me

In the night, I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk

Baby let's just knock it off

They don't know what we been through

They don't know 'bout me and you

So I got something new to see

And you just gon' keep hatin' me

And we just gon' be enemies

I know you can't believe

I could just leave it wrong

And you can't make it right I'm gon' take off tonight

Into the night...

In the night, I hear 'em talk,

the coldest story ever told

Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..

How could you be so heartless?

Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

~Kayne West