Never under-estimate the power of the ego!

This shirt was given to me by the Fuste's and holly said that I would never fit into to it. She was partly right since its from Thailand and apparently broad shoulders were not thought of when they constructed the shirt. Anyways this is me gloating at the fact that I fit in the shirt. OK actually I look high or something?

Anyways Holly found a new artist and I'm totally downloading all his boot leg music to my delight. Thank you Limewire. His name is, if you're wondering and I know you are!, Jay Brannan. I would suggest listening to Soda Shop. Those that have money to burn can go to Itunes to get his tracks but if you're like me and you feel music should be free, well you might endure some long downloading time but its worth the wait
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So yeah I guess I just saved you the trouble by doing that....anyways

I stayed up to write something so I should write it....

" Can't stop running, my lungs are burning, they're burning for air.

I keep on looking but I'm looking for something that isn't there.

I'm hot when I should be cold, I'm sweating when I should be dry.

My timing couldn't be worse, I have this yearning, its more like a thirst, a thirst that has no quench and

I've ended up taking a w/o end. There's a cliff on both sides and the only way off is to jump.

I hope I grow wings."

Whats on my mind...

I know its just smile, a little smile that I get caught up on

its got me thinkin about you and It just won't stop.

I hear you say you're usually shy and how you don't do this

but why is my name still fresh on your mind and my number on your phone?

Wish I could run into you for the first time over and over, you tend to leave a good

impression, a lovely after thought and the answer to my question.. You're absolutely stunning

and I can't stop staring, my heart keeps beating yelling, saying, and daring me to get your attention

to alleviate this pressure this tension of me wanting to tell you that I can't stop smiling every time you show me some affection .

Like a movie ending or even a fairy tale everything seems to be in the right place, you got that look that I've been looking for, got me questioning if I ever knew you before

your perfect smile and those bright eyes keep me going on strong till we meet again. Wish you'd

dial my number more often, instead of hesitating on pushing that send button.

You got me buzzin with that shot of you,in my system quit playing games with my mind

taking up all my thoughts and wasting my time just thinking bout you.

tired of being so distant, so far away from you, maybe someday, someway, somehow, sometime I'll find a way to back to you.

Its gets harder to say goodbye when I'm just thinking about How I just said hi

You gotta know I'm gonna catch up to you, its only a matter of time till we're together

Going insane from our short time get togethers, can't get enough, can you hear me sigh?

No more good-byes and no more long nights, just you and me how its suppose to be.

Independence

Today is Canada Day! yea I know what you're thinking- what does that actually mean to you and me! Well there's no real reason for us to be celebrate it but I feel that there's other holidays that i could probably do without. For instance what is president's day? Like what really happened on that day that makes all the banks and postal offices clothes. I mean for all meaningful purposes I just thought that the rest of the US stop doing anything major on my birthday! yeah it usually falls on President day. So anyways as of late I've been really getting back to to Music that has some lyrical depth to it.I know i'm jumping to another subject with out an lead in but I mean you've read this far and I still haven't mentioned the title of the entry, just like a good movie, I'll keep that till the most important part of this otherwise meaningless jargon of crap. I feel like I haven't really talked about anything meaningful on this damn thing. I mean the thing that usually gets me going is the lack of anything going but I can't really say that right now. I once made the mistake of opening up and expressing what I really felt and I got a couple of comments from people that I had never met or heard of which scared the crap out of me.

Which made me think, I only really write truthfully how I feel when I'm hurt or in totally depressed. But for the most part I'm so content that I'm just like whatever and this leads me to try to create some kind of drama for myself to keep myself for drowning in the boredom of life. Like I meet people that our genuinely happy to be around other people and I wonder why they do it, I mean I do it ( be around people) for the chance that they'll say something funny or a the chance of making a connection but for the most part I find most people are the same. They're insecure about something that they work really hard mask by doing or being something they're not...sometimes you meet people that have that Independence from the social term or idea of being cool. I find it refreshing to meet perfectly and totally insane people, I keep telling myself that I need to stop talking to these kinds of individuals but its like a car wreck, I can't keep away.

Hump day.

Why is that when ever i want to write, like really write about what I feel I get this blockage, this huge mass of fog hovering over me like a blanket of blackness disabling every thought into just a single period. Its like laughing at a joke in your head and no one around to share it with, its quite frustrating! I mean, I sometimes wonder where I've gone, I don't recognize myself sometimes when Re-read things I've written. I'm embarrassed but there's no around to laugh at me!?

I just thought I'd write down what google says I "Need" "Want" "Love" "Wishes"

• Google says Les needs eyeballs? Really, Eyeballs.


• Google says Les wants love again. HMM


• and Google say Les loves his big chopper!!


• finally Google say, well apparently Les wishes some french stuff???

I guess I'll just close my eyes and see what tomorrow makes of today.

Because imtations is a form of flattery@

Animated Experiencer

I took this from Jessica who took it from Trisha who perhaps found it on a widget.


To see what me is about

threw it out

Well more like slung it out..I've had it up to here( if you could see me pointing to my brow you'd see how) I've wasted my last ounce of time on HALO2, I got so mad tonight that i grabbed the game out of the xbox and whipped out the garage as hard as i could. I can't do it anymore..i just can't.

You wouldn't know from this picture but there lies a city of people behind those two giant ice cream eating hotties! If you notice theres a small man raising his arms in desperation (below jess's ice cream love it size cup).

So Crane's Roost is pretty cool, the girls and me ventured over there where we talked about life and love. There were people all around running, talking, chasing ducks. Jess decided that she wanted to do chase this duck around to see if would fly around but all the duck did was go around in circles like it was playing tag?! Holly has a video of it maybe we'll upload here. Then when we thought that we had seen everything we could see the lights were killed and music, such glorious music played, a stream of lights flashed out of the fountain. There was a 9p fountain show to our surprise. I have proof! Its whats for dinner

The grand finale

Thats all for now..

YOu and I

I don't know why its always more enjoyable to read other peoples thoughts then to formulate my own. I suppose that I get bored thinking about it and then writing it. I wish the didn't do away with the Audio blog. I'm more of a people kind of person, though I find it hard to look at people straight in the eye because it can become quite intense not sexually mind you but I think you can really tell what people are thinking when you look into their eyes. I don't think I'm ready for most people to know what I'm thinking. I don't think they're ready to know that, do you follow. I'm all about those words, pages,pages and more forwards of words.

SO with that in mind I'll just say a bit or two about what is going on...

How can you stare at that wall without wanting to run through it? Doesn't feel right, so off so un familiar to feel the way that I feel. Turn away from what I've known to possibly chase a dream that has no really end in sight. Stubborness filled with notions that make sense to me and only me. Get yourself up and to only have you get knocked down again. Its time to take a chance because all the wrong reason will always be there. You could sleep on it, sleep till you can't do anything but get up and face it. No pity party, no toast here, just plain ol life looking right at you and seeing you for what you really are, can't run from it and you can't hide from it. There's no cute little tabs to categorize how I'm feeling, no quick fix online to make me feel better. I can laugh aloud in front of you but what really keeps up at night is the unchanging thought that keeps me awake, I drown the voices with the music but the music always stops and there it is again! I won't worry my life away....

Where has the time gone..

Apparently its almost June! What, i blinked and it was summer. Well its always summer here in Orlando but you know what I mean. Peanut butter on the outside jelly in the inside, thats a profound lyric from the 36 Mafia!! Anywho, I was in Dave's and Mellie's wedding and I came away with this from that wedding.

1) I love to dance but I love watching others dance more! Dave's mom has incredible moves.

2) Its never comfortable sitting with two people that are very uncomfortable around each other

3) Make sure that the person that you're walking in with isn't sick, because long after they leave you still stay sick, Thanks April!

oh more thing i'm getting a new room mate..and its not necessarily a hit with the GF!!

stay tune to that..

I love my mom..

So it was that time of year when you call your mother and thank her for enduring you for the past numbers of years and they respond to you in the manner like it was no big deal! Mother's day, thats right. I hope you called your mama and told her you love her and appreciate her. I know i did.

I wish there was a good way of formatting these pictures so that it doesn't look like crap. I know that we all say that our mom's are the best and that might be true but I think I might have of one the best, to think that when I was 8 I use to think that my mom wasn't my mom but one of my friends mom, i think it because they had a lot of video games and I wasn't allowed to play them, stupid reason I know.

With that being said,

Te quero mucho Mama, gracias por todo!

Tu hijo.

Lester Francico.

Rebutal..yeah, I have a rebutal, hmmm, what?

At my current project as I like to call it I'm reminded how fun it is sometimes to just sit back and listen to people. Its amazing how many people resemble other people from TV. Like there's this guy that looks like an older Alton from the real world, he talks just like him and is cut just like him. then there's this scary old guy that looks like he just killed someone with a rusty butter knife across the room who intent in where a tie to this place. My favorite character is the skinny gay guy who has a mushroom cut and a little ear ring, it straight of the early nineties! Which brings me to my real point, do you ever notice when people are by themselves among large pockets of people they need to be doing something, either pretending to be on their cell phones, or drinking water even if its warm just to seem like you have nothing to and you don't really need to talk to anyone? My favorite is having your hand in your pockets because thats how normal people walk, like penguins? Its such a hard habit to break!

You know what else I noticed? That i don't like dolls that have those little eyes that open when you pick them, I always feel like they'll start talking to me and I won't know what to do.

Also why is it that everyone has an opinion on how you should live your life but they don't head their own advice, have we turned into our parents or does that only eventually happen when you have kids. LIke i keep on hearing, "oh you'll understand when you have your own kids!"

I hope it doesn't take that long. I mean ,I get it, you never stop being a parent and just a friend.

all i can say that is that is has to be the coolest magic trick that we call all do, make love and 9 months later you have little piece of you and your wife right in front of you!

I'm rambling so I'm going to get ready for church.

Is it safe to go to school?

I'm sitting on my red target chair with the blind drawn wide open listening to Josh Groban, yes Josh Groban. The thought that has been passing through my head these past couple days have been that there is a growing problem with violence. We, me, you, your and neighbors are at war at two fronts. While causalities are to be expected on the streets of some city in Iraq what the hell is going on here? Virgina Tech, even at my Alma mater there was a deranged seminar student strangling a professor. As i write this there is a report of a gunman at NASA! I might sounds harsh in saying this but if you feel the need to kill yourself take yourself and spare everyone else around you. There is never a reason to kill a room full of students, seriously! I try to not watch the news for this same reason, I don't need to watch it on to know that we're all messed up. I know that there is some real shit going on out there but really when isn't there. So I would like to say thank you to all you bloggers that continue to write about how your boobs are small, or how you cleaned up large amounts of poop and throw up. I appreciate reading about how you still can't pay your taxes on time..anything to keep my mind off the fact that the ride to school might be the last ride you might take. It would seem that our generation has taken the motto of the pen is mightier than the sword and shattered it. Stay safe...

The only time holly has liked my facial hair. I shaved it to a mustache the very next day but she yelled at me and threaten to not leave the house with me if I didn't shave. I wish I had evidence of that bodacious stache!

So I've been sleeping on the couch while I've been here and needless to say that I've missed my bed but not because its big and comfortable but because I don't have to be covered in a sleeping bag and a down comforter! Its all good, you do what you have to do to be with the people that make you go! I have found a new love, reading! Well at least books that deal with sports or big personalities so lets not go giving each other a pat on the back and please hold back on the book club invitations. Its amazing that if i close my eyes and just listen all I can hear is the rain dropping the rooftop and the occasional car whiz past King st ave. This is truly a nice place to live, its something that I can only remember. The itch to be close to the city is too big for me especially with a metro as interesting as the GTA!!! Anyways I was listening to J.Mayer and I couldn't get this lyrics out of my mind..

.......No I'm not colorblind

I know the world is black and white

Try to keep an open mind

But I just can't sleep on this tonight

Stop this train

I wanna get off

And go home again

I can't take the speed it's moving in

I know I can't

But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

Don't know how else to say it......

OH yeah, pictures.. I can't find holly's camera to upload any up yet. So I'll leave with this one of HAT.

What do you mean its delayed?

So on my recent trip to Toronto was plagued with delays. I left my house around 1230 ish and didn't leave Orlando till 4:30. I was scheduled to leave at 2:55. I got to Chicago to meet yet another delay. I was there for over 5 hours....Needless to say that i arrived 5 1/2 hours later than I was suppose to...but then my girl picked me up and I forgot how long I had sat on an airplane.
Though I did have a good experience with my single serving friend from Chicago to Toronto. A delightful women with years of experience in life. She reminded me of my mother with her positive energy and warm eyes. We talked about her life and her love interests, well her two previous marriages that ended with divorce due to involvement of alcohol in the marriage, even with such devastating life crutches she still had the optimism of a women with hope. She talked to me in detail about her daughters and cousins. She was a proud lady, I appreciated her encouragement as I talked to her about my future plans. Eleanor, thanks for the talk.

Oh, one more thing, apparently in Canada there are flying squirrells that attack bird feeders. I'll try to get some video of this before I leave.
Well bye for now..

Yeah..I know she loves...

So my trek to the great white north begins is 48hours or so..I'm excited to leave florida for a little bit and see how the poloar bears live (i.e everyone else that wears coats). I especially looking forward to the little games that we play at the thorne's house about who gets to do what. Its usually holly because she's the not married one ( don't worry baby I'm really working on that) and then me because i'm the sidekick of the equation. I don't mind but she gets all huffy and puffy, its sorta of cute until she starts to yell, then i just want to hide. I wonder if I'll get to sit with someone interesting. Its come to my realization that I have no problem to talking to complete strangers about anything. Most recently I struck a conversation with a older man smoking a cig outside of starbucks ( i bought a hybrid juice drink if you're wondering what kind of coffee drinker I am- I'm not!) and he overheard craig and I's conversation about baseball. He asked me if I was a player and i said no ( I think he assumed I was since I'm am Latino and one thing we do know how to do is play shortstop or steal..oh sorry about that last one!?) So goes about asking me where I'm from and if I went to college. I tell him I'm from Michigan and I went to Andrews University, you know what this guy says?

Berrien Springs right? I was like how did you know that? I didn't have to go into the whole spiel about how its 30 min north of Norte Dame! So I tell him I'm struggling with the idea of going back to Grad School because of the money issue, I tell him I'm thinking about taking out ugh more loans. He says to me, don't do it, go to the library and find this book____ and send out 20 request, I'll get at least 3 scholarships if I do that. He goes on to tell me that I can get into Dartmouth, Princeton, NYU, or Chicago ( school of economics) if I can write a good essay. He was very hospitable but then he started talking to me about how he was 3 wives and 600 hundred children. Apparently he's a millionaire. I asked for his name and all he gave me is Hamilton. Which could be a another way of saying My name is tom. You see if you re arrange the letters you get "I am Thon." That's just me being crazy. I gave him my number to see if we could talk to me some more. The 2 most important things I got out the conversation are, Keep the sabbath day and I will leave this world once a week, also stopping talking to crazy people!

Oh hol, I'll see you in like 46hours! Holla!

You wear such cool hats!

I get that statement, comment, remark alot. I sorta of chuckle because people must think that I love wearing hat when that's really not the case. I would love nothing more to just let me hair grow out and be shaggy but ooops mother nature didn't allow me to do that any longer so I have become a fan of accessories, Hat's in particular. To adorn one's dome is Divine, well that's what the BOsely's Hair Institute said but I think they'll say anything to make men feel good about themselves when they're losing their hair. I guess I accepted that process because there was no other alternative. What, take the pill, no thanks I wasn't keen about having my DNA change. What about rogaine, well that's fine and dandy if one remembers to apply it everyday and frankly I forget to brush my teeth some times what made me think that I could remember to do that. I know gross...
SO when it came down to it, I was just too scared and lazy to do anything about it. I sometimes look at the way i use to look and I get a little sad...but that is life.

OK Its really really really late and I'm awake?! But more crazy than that, craig was just up with me!!!!
I swear I'll see a flying pig at any moment......

let the madness begin..

Tomorrow is the beginning of a beautiful thing...no its not Friday, and no I don't get presents. Its march madness, where college basketball takes over day time soaps, and grown men hover over little scores and endless amounts of paper is literally wasted on useless brackets. Yeah, its great.

In other news, I think I've over stayed my stay at a certain place. The co workers are beginning to think that I'm one of them, you know they're asking questions that take our superficial friendships to an unknown area that I'm not really comfortable with. They want to hang out...I don't really like hanging out with people i work with..because I don't like the two worlds colliding. I just started accepting the fact that I have to talk to my neighbors. Anyways I think I have to grow up and get my ass back in the game...the game of life....i'm tragically being left in the dust.....damn..

I know that alot of you don't watch family guy be it that you can't get over that its a really funny show with improbable satire fitting of real live actors that somehow have found itself in a cartoon...well get over it, I don't watch it because I think the cartoons are really well drawn...



anyways...

Stay out of the sun...though I know being tan is a choice its a very dangerous one. Just accept that I wake up with this complexion...and no...its not great...its marvelous

I can they say its 12:19am when my body says its still 11:19am!

I've been avoiding the news like a visit to the dentist, ( sorry Justin, there isn't anything more annoying then visiting someone to look into your mouth and then have some small talk while they dig and clean your teeth), the reasoning: There's just sad crap on the news. I use to think that world news would be better but its impossible for me because I live in Florida, something bad always happens in Florida!! I went to CNN.com tonight and these where some of the Headline's

• Comedian commits suicide
• 101 yr old woman mugged
• wild fires threaten multi million dollar homes ( I know my west coast friends don't have multi millions homes but I hope you're safe!)
• Bush orders more troops to Iraq (apparently the gas prices are too high so we've got steal more oil!- that comment will probably cost me a job at the CIA, FBI, or DIA!!
• Beserk house cat sends owner to the hospital. (seriously that was the headline! WTF!)

Yeah, news that makes it in the "news" is usually bad..

ok, thats all..

The headline read:

Man found alone wearing pj's from valentine's day 2001. Apparent cause of lack of sleep, the inability to conjure up a real thought. The real sense of change is a welcomed thought but the action is, the action is what really is lacking. I'm the kind of person that thinks of re-meeting people that i already know because the thought of me not choosing to befriend them excites me. I re watch movies to the point that i can recite the lines without a second thought. At least I'm not timid when it comes to confrontation, though i do let people walk over me because I'm afraid of saying what really is on my mind, wait does that mean I'm not good when it comes to confrontations? Hmm, yet another thing to worry about tonight. I think i was born a decade to early. I remember thinking the 90's where so...wishy washy. First I was grunge, in the middle i was hip hop and by the end of the decade I was full blown preppy. I couldn't make up mind how i wanted to be seen...that problem went away. I find it funny that this gay guy at work feels the need to tell me what I should wear! I know that for better than not, Gay men have a sense of style but I don't think pressed jeans and ironed shirts constitute you being a fashionista. I'm watching Eternal Sunshine of a spotless mind, if that were possible, to clear your mind of things that brought you pain, embarrassment, discomfort...would you do it?

anyways its late and i should be asleep...